Reverie

I would like to be selfish and think of what’s good for me
Selfishness born out of fear of the unknown
I would like to protect myself
That my heart would not bleed with the torn of nothingness

I would like to be selfish
Yet, where is love in there?
It’s only when I let go and not force things to happen
Even if it means there might be uncertainty looming ahead

The ringing of a distant bell signifies a start or a finish
In the bouts and darkness of misery,
There is a slit of hope that things will work out
Not only for a chance but for a lifetime

The light in the western sky starts to fade
It brings me back to my reverie
As the dark hours appear, I will meditate on one thought
In this life, happiness is measured not in scale, but of quality

Elusive Dream

Oh, my elusive dream
Where to look for?
In the cracks of the parchment
I see the indistinct outline

Catching the fleeting haze of spark flaring
Is that dream over the sea?
Or is it on top of the mountain?
Hope it will not remain a fleeting notion

Wanting not to settle for less
Refusing to acknowledge defeat
I will go to great length
So it’ll not remain my pensive dream

More than Different

Am I different because I am from a new land?
Am I different because I look exotic?
Like an insect that metamorphosed
Like a striking blossom deep in the forest

It’s sad if you like me because I fascinate you
My interesting features assails you
Not because you have deep feelings
But because I stir your primitive soul

My being awakens your senses
Gives you a feeling of euphoria
Yet, I am more than what you perceive
More than what you realize

Love Luck

How will I know he is the one?
Is there a sign in his eyes?
How will I know he is right?
When his smile is untwisted and true?

In the game of love I tried my hands
At first it seems all are at my side
But the diamond luck runs out
When I drew my last card

Now it keeps me thinking
Is love a chance or a destiny?
A science of chemistry maybe?
Multiple questions assail me

In my head a waste of time
To try my luck in this dangerous game
Rational thought prowls and growls
When will it strike my heart?

Hindsight

When you spare a minuscule time
Shall I say you care for me?
When statements are scant like gold
Shall I say, in your eyes I am worth it?

When every call is measured in minutes
Shall I say I am in your heart?
When your attention is sparing and I wait forever
I say to myself, is this what I want?

On hindsight, Search the world and find your soul
Seek the remnants of who you are
Stretch your massive wings
And soar into the encompassing sky.

Misery

At night I cry tearing my insides
Unwanted tears escape my eyes
A cruel act to set me aside
Messages sent left untied

The gods of playful fate
They give me a dose of hate
It hurts to face veracity
Undress my wings of fantasy

This case I lost
Take them to the host
Play with it if you want
I give you grant

Just leave me be
In my misery
At the end of the day
It will be my last say